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April 03* 2003, 10:51 pm
mike isn't going to grad. school this fall. it turned to be an easier decision that he thought, since he ended up getting rejected. the news was taken well though. he was really upset. he gets too down on himself. so do i. that's bad right? perhaps i have stumbled on to part of the recipe for toxic couple. i had an "interview" today that was nothing but a scam. awesome. bring on more of those. i did get to wear a new skirt though. and meet brian for lunch. lunch at 4pm. the time my grandpa eats supper. and the place was packed with old people. probably eating supper. the kids went to new orleans last week so i didn't babysit. and then on tuesday i went but it turned out that i was not needed because brandon and karen were both home. it was good to see the kids though. i actually missed them. tonight bain said he missed me and asked me not to go home (i think its because he associated me leaving with him having to stop watching spy kids), which was nice. i am actually good with kids. i actually like them. i am wondering if i should just do that with my life. i can't remember the last time i actually liked my job. maybe the a&e job a litte. i don't remember. and that was almost a year ago anyway. but i want to adopt kids. there is no way i can do that for a long time. the other night we were going to sleep and i said that i wanted to have kids and mike said "with who?" (good answer!) and i said "whoever, thats not the point. i want to have kids." and he said he's not ready. i pointed out that i don't even have a job. we decided maybe in a few years. i think we were delusional from lack of sleep. or maybe we meant it. who knows. if there is someone out there who gets their day to day news from reading my journal than i am sorry- you are very uninformed about the war that is going on right now. it just seems like there is too much i am annoyed with and wish would stop, that i don't know where to start. i just want it to end as soon as possible. and then i would like the economy to boom, as it likes to do post war, and i would like to take advantage of said boom. the end. my dad is telling me to seriously consider grad school and mike's friend is testing for a job with the state department and mike thinks i should too. standardized tests are where i'm a viking! i guess i have nothing to lose by looking into these things more. i just ate popcorn and diet pepsi twist for dinner. mmmm pms is awesome! a band will be sleeping in my apartment tomorrow night. it will be like 5 dutch guys and my friend mark. yet i am cleaning my whole place. who wants to bet that it could be filthy and they wouldn't care? oh well, this is one area where i am a real girl. break out the swiffer!
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