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June 02*2002, 3:48 am
i lived the life of dreams today. and want to write it all down before i go to sleep and forget the details. (but i also have a taped soccer game that i need, not want, NEED, to watch, so i'll get to it) i ended up having a daytrip adventure with my friend joe. a day in atlantic city. at first we got a little sidetracked the wrong direction . but that ended up being a good thing because we ate in this diner and joe fell in love. her name is cori-ann and she was our waitress. she gave us better directions and joe decided that he should marry her. then we left and went off to "America's Favorite Playground" Atlantic city. it had a strange power over me. it both attracted and repelled me all at once for basically the same reasons. it felt just like seaside, which just made me nostalgic for my trip to seaside last year- that was just such a good time. but there was a lot more desperation and seediness in the air. gambling is what does that to people. in high school i was friends with jason schrowe and he and i were madly applying for college scholarships senior year. my family was poor and i wanted to go away, but i wondered what his excuse was. it turned out his dad gambled away his college fund and the family's savings every day on his lunch break. which, he laughed about....sorta, but i could tell that he was sad about it, but all he could do was laugh- it was just so terrible. in atlantic city there are atms and pawn shops everywhere. money money money. the sound of it being sucked out of people's lives is heard with the crash of the waves on the littered beach. and few people have the look of someone who could afford to lose much money. i saw an older woman lose repeatedly at black and jack and just keep taking money out of her little purse, and i almost started crying. i hate money. but then i learned more about the games and got really into watching and learning and putting things together. things i learned: 1. i love roulette 2. i hate slot machines 3. people are sad 4. joe likes topless women all in all it was mostly things i already knew. i was a little surprised at how much i got into the gambling part. i liked figuring stuff out and trying to make educated guesses. joe said it scared him. the other thing that happened is that i saw the evander holyfield/rachman boxing match. joe was so psyched about the fight and then when he found out we were right near it i was afraid he would crap his pants. then when he found out there were still some seats available, i knew it was all over. his excitement level was too high- i had lost him. i like seeing people excited about things, even if they are things that i am not excited about. like mike's excitement over star wars. its like he's a little kid all over again and wants to believe in magic. that was joe today. so i went along and tried to atleast learn about it, even if it wasn't magic to me. i have to admit, i learned a lot. and there was more than once where i got excited and wrapped up in the moment. it's fun doing something you've never done before. even if you do find something very wrong with the event. holyfield won. then we drove back, through the prostitutes and pawn shops back to the prostitutes and pawn shops of new york. it was nice to be home. it was such a perfect day, and it happened so effortlessly that i feel like i dreamt it. i can't even believe that we drove five hours today. i don't even remember being in the car. it was that good.
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