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July 22*2002, 10:26 pm
i had a terrible day today. as of last friday the password that i was using at work to check my hotmail and write in this thing stopped working. it just prompted me for another password. darn work computers! so or two whole days i had to do work. and tons of it. i still had instant messenger though- so not all was lost. today a fellow temp showed me how to bypass the password and get online. which rocks, but for some reason hotmail still prompts for more passwords. and some sites just dont come up at all, however i only had like 5 minutes to test it. so, the fact that i sit at work and talk to no one all day is starting to have an effect on me. especially considering it is such dull work and my hands are in such pain by about 4 oclock or earlier. not cool. and lately i have been worried about my mom because she is so messed up and has disappeared for a while this time, and hasn't even bothered to ask me for money in months. something must be wrong. and then i was supposed to meet luds at kmart to buy paint for the kitchen cabinets after work. and i walk down because its only like 7 blocks from my office. i decided to go into macys on the way for some reason. i guess because there were so many people on the street that i was going nuts. but only 5 minutes in macys and my head was so full of perfume smells that i had a splitting headache and thought i was gonna throw up. so i go to kmart- in the midst of crowds of people all annoying in their own way. why do so many freaking people live in this smelly city. anywho. i get to kmart at like 545. and look around for a scumbuster- what luck! they have one in stock- and i grab that sucker. they also have other things i wanted- but i realized it was almost 6 so i should wait for mike in the paint department. i wait and wait and wait and wait. check messages and there is nothing. now it is after 630. i wait. the basement of kmart did not have a/c today. and i had a splitting headache. i just got so sweaty. and kids just keep yelling and running around. i have to pee. it is 7- i go use the phone. there is a message from mike saying he is at kmart but is looking for me and cant find me- but i can barely make it out. so i RUN back to the paint area hoping he didn't miss me while i was gone. nope- still no luds. sweat drips down the butt crack. no luds. it is now 730 and no sign of mike. so i go use the phone again and there is a message that i can't make out from him that cuts off. so i go back in and look around, and decide to try him one more time before i just give up and go home. i go back to the phones at penn station. and at this point i am about to wet my pants and vomit from the heat. i pick up the phone. and in my ear i hear someone whisper "you're pretty" and then someone's hands grab my shoulders. and i freaked out. i shook off the crazy homeless guy and ran through penn station hoping to make it to the bathroom. it smells and the line in long. i had a panic attack in penn station. i just started crying and fell down. i thought maybe i had heat stroke. i have no idea. i ended up hailing a cab and rushing home. only to come home to mike sitting on the couch watching tv- turns out he had gone to a different kmart. he forgot which one we decided to meet at. so we ended up getting nothing and getting nothing done. and i made myself sick. so now he gets to go paint shopping by himself and do the ugly cabinets by himself because i already wasted enough of my time on them, while he talked on the phone to a friend and then watched tv on our couch. i have too many other things to do now that i got nothing done tonight. i am so mad. and my stomach still hurts. and so do my hands. |