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March 31, 2002, 8:29 pm
P A R T O N E i painted one and a half walls of my living room yesterday. mike and i bought the paint months ago but only now got around to it. first of all- the BRIGHT white that the super had painted our apartment before we moved in, is not only ugly, but also so glossy that it takes more than one coat to cover. secondly, i had been worried about the color we chose for the living room- i liked it when we were at home depot. mike picked it out. but the more time that passed between buying it and painting, the more antsy i got. he talked me into it being okay. when we opened the paint yesterday i was initially relieved because it was not as terrible as my imagination had warped it. but after painting a main wall- i am thinking that i don't want every wall this color. it's kinda overpowering. it's a yellow-orange that is sorta deep/bright. i like it a lot more than the bright white- but maybe the whole room this color is a bit much. mike says i should let it sink in before we decide what to do. he likes it. which is great- because if we both were antsy i would be repainting it white today. P A R T T W O mike and i had a date last night and we went to this newly refurbished movie theater downtown. it was really nice. we saw "y tu mama tambien". it was one of the most terrible things i have ever seen. it immediately made me sad (mostly for personal reasons) but quickly grossed me out and annoyed me and about 30 or 45 minutes into the movie i got up and left. mike says he was not liking it either but was willing to give it a try. apparently seeing two skeevy boys get high and circle jerk etc... wasn't my thing- who knew! oh well. P A R T T H R E E a girl signed my guestbook and i don't know her (i don't know most of the people who sign my guestbook actually) but i went to her diary and it was really good. she is in high school- and she writes about it very well. however- she seems to have quite an eating disorder and is almost using the journal as a cry for help. to her i say this: not eating won't necessarily make you thin- it will most likely just lead to making you malnourished and sick and taking many years off of your life. my friend's cousin has been anorexic for a long time but people seemed to be in denial a about it. recently she was checked into a hospital and she could not even drink water without throwing it up and she is only in her mid twenties and has very advanced osteoperosis and if she had not gotten help she would have died. she still could. she is so far under weight that doctors were amazed she was alive. that will effect her whole llife. she will never be capable of having kids etc... i had an eating disorder when i was younger- high school-ish age, and i know that i grew out of it and have been fine- but i know some people who never did. and you think you have other problems and that people wouldn't like you if you knew about them. well, anyone who wouldn't like you for something like that isn't worth it anyway. no one is perfect and every one does things they are not proud of. anyone who says otherwise is lying. you are a good writer. obviously you have that going for you. how can you be that bad? that's it. T H E E N D |